“Smokers-they drive me crazy.”
Those were the words rolling around in my head as I walked past them on the bench on my way into the hospital. I smelled it and and heard a smoker’s cough.
Photo by Anna Longova
“Serves you right to hack like that. Because you smoke.” Continue reading
I sat on the stairs with my hands covering my mouth, in state of shock.
I was sitting next to pieces of my teeth.
These are the very stairs I smashed my teeth on in 2004.
Dan was walking by at that moment and asked, “Are you okay Mike?” “No” was my reply, still trying to process what just happened.
“If I could only get that moment back.”
“If could do it again, I would have ______”.
You ever said (or thought) those words? They are, in fact, words reflecting regret. Regret at time lost or misspent. A moment or season of bad choices. Continue reading
It’s been a number of months since I interviewed for a job in another state.
The opportunity sounded wonderful: I would help in starting a new hospital, just like I had done over 8 years ago. The similarities were remarkable. A hospital within the same larger health system doing a lot of the same things-establish a presence in a community where it hadn’t been before.
I am watching and I stand still, but move at the same time.
I see and observe all that comes through me and here’s a glimpse of a typical day for me.
- When curious people pass by, wondering what things look like on the other side.
- Fear on people’s faces as they wonder what will happen when I see them again in a few minutes. The questions and uncertainty of the moment scares them.
- Oh, the joy of a family expanded by one, sometimes two new little ones! Their faces shine with a happiness and some apprehension over what is to come. I also see faces of the siblings wondering what this means when a new life enters the home.
- Sometimes I see anger because a person is coming through again to see someone they prefer not to, or face circumstances they feel impossible to deal with.
- Many times I see confusion on a face. What’s going on? What happened? Is my father okay? Is my son going to make it?
- It is especially hard when after a family has rushed in, they leave sadly a short time later with one less person because death has taken him or her.
- Cigarette smoke wafts up nearby as I watch you pace back and forth, perhaps in prayer.
- Determination to defeat the demon rising.
- Relief when the information and data turned out to not be overwhelming.
What am I?
I am the door to a hospital. I stay in place and move all day, every day.
It’s something we all do, no matter what’s going on around or within us.
What is it? Eat food, of course.
Have a meal, either by ourselves or with others.
And naturally in the hospital where most eating takes places is in the cafeteria. Continue reading
Dill Pickle – Creative Commons
Have you heard the one about the pickle?
His favorite thing to say was, “I’m a pretty big dill.”
My friend Jane would appreciate that one.
Let’s rephrase those words and translate them for humans and how we often think: “I’m a pretty big deal.”
Yep, we believe it, don’t we? I saw the t-shirt passing by more than once.
But what if I were to share with you one phrase to change your entire perspective on on life and how you relate to people? It will make people actually want to be around you. Continue reading
Intimacy is not easy for me. I shouldn’t even write about it.
There are a number of reasons for it going back to my family of origin, and while it’s not easy for me, I crave it almost above all other things. Continue reading
You ever had words from a song keep speaking to your heart? I mean as they are heard, you feel them in a way as only music can.
These words are resonating with me right now, from a song by Switchfoot:
Until I die I’ll sing these songs
On the shores of Babylon
Still looking for a home
In a world where I belong
|Part of the route I walk regularly in my neighborhood.
I began my year with a few goals, one of which was to lose some weight.
Borderline obese for my height, I had to do something because I didn’t feel great about my body image.
And so I began. Five months later I find myself 20 pounds lighter and feeling better. Continue reading